So far throughout my whole education life, I have come to a point that Nursing has been the most challenging point in my life. My results are hopeless. I can't even qualify for university. Even at the most bleak situations, there's 10% of me which will assure the 90% of me. Mediocre shit. Coming back to the point, I've always hated science. I used to sleep during lessons and I've never scored above the C grade. I'm more of a Maths person. I can do it throughout the whole day and still love every aspect of it. Be it Amaths or Emaths & topping the class. Its been two miserable years that I've forbid Maths and the beauty of it. Wow, how far I have came with nothing. Nothing. Like how I am screwing up my future.
Love-hate relationship
So I had been contemplating whether I should indulge my stomach or not for the past few hours. I did indulged after major wrestling with my mind & stomach. I feel lousy right now at the moment. Its 1.55am and I just gobbled down high in calories food. Great. Happy digesting it, stomach. As much as I despise people who always complain how fat they are and oh-i-ate-many-many-food-and-i-feel-so-fat kind of things, I'm being just like them. Irony. Naturally I do not publicise it in facebook, since god-knows how many people there are in my friend list. Complaining, whining & the list goes on. Somehow there's always been a love-hate relationship. Something that I can't seem to control at times like when life's miserable piece of shit. Its quite petrifying that I can gobble down two-servings of food of a guy. It doesn't get any better than this. As what my friends like to describe, emotional eating. Apparently, my self-control has drastically changed. Two years bac...