lately i've been feeling strange or shall i say empty and heavy at the same time. oh wait, no. rather useless, spiritless, faithless. its bothering me radically. second after second i keep musing. i swore never to touch it when nothing felt right inside. of course, this is yet another emo post of mine cause where can i actually vent it all when parents & brothers are busy sleeping. getting wasted every other night. actually i f do not know what i am typing. kbye.
Love-hate relationship
So I had been contemplating whether I should indulge my stomach or not for the past few hours. I did indulged after major wrestling with my mind & stomach. I feel lousy right now at the moment. Its 1.55am and I just gobbled down high in calories food. Great. Happy digesting it, stomach. As much as I despise people who always complain how fat they are and oh-i-ate-many-many-food-and-i-feel-so-fat kind of things, I'm being just like them. Irony. Naturally I do not publicise it in facebook, since god-knows how many people there are in my friend list. Complaining, whining & the list goes on. Somehow there's always been a love-hate relationship. Something that I can't seem to control at times like when life's miserable piece of shit. Its quite petrifying that I can gobble down two-servings of food of a guy. It doesn't get any better than this. As what my friends like to describe, emotional eating. Apparently, my self-control has drastically changed. Two years bac...
